ARGH!

My new phone [n70] is officially LOST! I’m pissed, i’m horrified and i’m definitely disappointed. How can i be such a careless ass and forgot about my phone! I’m speechless. I think i can throw the pills it’s bloody pointless. It’s suppose to improve my annoyingly slow brain but i ended up forgetting where the hell i placed my stuffs!!!I just bought the phone and renewed my line with Singtel! ARGH. What a pathetic day. This is the worst thing that could ever happen to me. Man…i’m not in the mood to do anything…feel like sleeping and not waking up at all. All the fears engulfed in my mind. The feeling is too intense. I can’t sleep… All i can wish for is some kind soul returning the phone back to me. It’s a gift. I hope it’ll happen, after i woke up from my bed. I don’t want to shed any more tears it’s giving me a heavy blocked nose. I have dozens of important messages… Whatever. Why can’t i be brave enough to tie a rope for my neck or in a ready position to jump out of the building? This is too much. I hate this feeling. It’s not just a phone. It’s a gift from my mum. Ater all that had happen to me this week, all the accumulated stress…i can never calm myself down. I suffered enough. I held my patience but i feel like i’m cursed and the spell is not yet broken. Can i just not breathe…?