2007- Was i cursed?

This will be my last post this year.

Flowers blossom- energy rejuvenated- life gets more excited- smiles from the beautiful falling leaves- the aura that keeps me inspired…

Not all things happened so greatly and sophisticated this year.

Bad working style at SSC-
Rejected from a singing company [PSI]-
Terrible ‘O’level result [I failed my english]-
6 months of suffering in my course-
Rejected for Orion in NYP-
Financial problems for months-
Stress from mom and aunt-
Dance stress-
No relationship-
Inconsistent voice quality-
In the midst of quitting school totally-
At 48, my dad passed away-
Weak heart [too emotional]-
and more…

Sometimes i thought, why must people complain their pathetic lives? Have they gone through what i had? This is the first time I complain how disastrous my life is. I just could not take the pain and stress. Was i fated to receive all the difficulties?…

All I wish for 2008 is a better life. Oh lord i’m not asking much. Just a better life.

I can’t believe i’m being so emotional right now. It’s as if my eyes have not shed a tear for a long time.

Seriously if i can recall the best moment of my life, was when i took a picture of my dad when he was smiling even when he was at the hospital. Sigh.

There’s a saying, “leave the past behind, and look ahead in the future”. Hais, I hope i’m not cursed for life. Think i’m grabbing a few bars of chocolates now.

Bye/sayonara/zai jian/selamat tinggal/tschüß/vara tey/paalam/au revoir/sawatdee/ayubowan/ate breve/ciao/…

Mild Depression

So the other day the director of design school called me.

“I need your portfolio to ensure that you’ll have the talent and interest in this course…” bla bla bla…

I was stunned. Where can i get my portfolio??? All my drawings and paintings are pasted at my secondary school’s art room. So I decided to calm down and sms my Art teacher. She didn’t reply up till today. Somehow I can guess it. She’s not the kind that will help people sincerely. Even her former student. Can you imagine… she promised to write letter of recommendation to Lasalle for me, but didn’t execute it in the end!

I’m definitely disappointed and scared because right now, i got nothing! How can i make a portfolio within a week with my hectic schedules? It’s like “It’s now or never”. Either I got in, or i’ll drop school OR I signed up for similar course in other poly. Can i just give up? Pfft.

Bye/sayonara/zai jian/selamat tinggal/tschüß/vara tey/paalam/au revoir/sawatdee/ayubowan/ate breve/ciao/…